personal blog.

2009-08-31T01:30:00.003+08:00

i cannot bear to delete this blog away.
it has too much memories. so much photos.
where i ended some relationship i wished i never started, and started a relationship im wishing would never end ((:
♥

so im keeping this. will still blog here if im ever sick of my new blog. lalala. byebye!

2009-08-18T14:52:00.001+08:00

pig organ soup-ed on national day.
WAH LAO BLOGGER IS OKAY ALREADY?! -.-

2009-08-17T10:42:00.000+08:00

this place is no longer active.
shall consider reopening this once blogger stop dying on me & everyone else.

bye blogger.
as for new url, let me consider whether i should publicise (:

chao!

2009-08-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

blogger is fucked up.

2009-08-14T10:58:00.004+08:00

what the hell, i can only blog in school, so im taking time to blog.
lina's not in school again, fly aeroplane again. later eat alone again. roar.

so we had our presentation two days ago. i wasnt exactly nervous bout presenting but trust me, two of the accessors were pretty much pissing me off and they really made my blood boil at like 200 dc. i was like 'fuck fuck fuck, just shut up and let me walk out of this god damn room lah'
whatever it is, it's over, and i dont really care anymore.

photos from fyp presentation.

past 14 weeks with them(:

go away leh.

girls(:

without them, school's damn boring.

twin!

winna!

hahaha i look fuckin cui here but i did take photo with this girl here ok! linalinalina!

last but not least,

OMFG FYP'S OVER! :D
(for now)

okay, i gotta get back to class work. 'boon' wms program. whatever crap. last lesson for warehousing. wee u weet.
2 more school days to go. law & logistics planning.
then exams.
then holidays.

wah love it man.
ok i really need to go already.

i miss boyfriend yeo :(
byebye!

2009-08-11T11:24:00.003+08:00

die very skinny..

or die very fat..

i think im just nice. i insist. lol.

baby can u change your exhaust pipe to this? please? :D

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i cant wait for 25th to arrive.
then im officially on holidays! :D

just spent 3 days 2 nights over at boyfriend's last weekend.
i forgot what we did on friday night. i think we went for Where Got Ghost at Plaza Sing with mingwei. then had roti prata at yishun.
sunday night, stayed at home, watched abit of ndp parade on tv and then we went to beach road for fireworks, was blocked by the damn building :(
but thank you b, i know u wanted to bring me to watch. next one shall be 5th month, I bring YOU :D
then we went for pig organ soup at balestier. wah. hungry. =/
movie at night with mingwei, shengyong, wen wen & jia qing.
GI JOE. my boyf's movie. hehexzxz.
not bad lah. but we watched at like 2am, and was quite tired to concentrate. =/

i know i havent been uploading photos for damn long.
tmr tmr! there's presentation tmr, we shall/will camwhore i guess.

byebye, the girl beside me is quite sickening.
lol. & i never bring dettol to disinfect my chair damn it.
super buey zi dong uh some people.

(:

2009-08-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Dear students and staff,

It is unfortunate that we have to break this news to you. The bodies of two students from Republic Polytechnic were found on the Malaysian rail line this morning, 8 August, at 5 am. The deceased were from SOH (DIEM): GOH SHENG YAO; LEE JING YU CLARA.

The police are still investigating the case. We will release more information when they are available.

Please be advised that RP counsellors are contactable at 9770-4357 or email/IM help-counselor@rp.sg should you need to speak with someone.

Yours sadly,

Khng Eu Meng

Director, Office of Corporate Communications

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RIP.
http://blog.omy.sg/shinmin/archives/1185

2009-08-07T13:43:00.000+08:00

omg.
im so sorry dear blog.

ive been neglecting you for the longest time, but that is because blogger was being a pain in the ass and didnt allow me to blog, no photos no nothing.
secondly it was because i fell sick shortly after babyboy was sick. had fever together and he recovered earlier than me!
but poor boy's still having cough and he's on his way to quitting smoking, right baby? :D

so this is the reason.
sick = never go and tiong = no photos

& OMFG MY EXAMS ARE COMING.
two papers on the 21st!
two papers i dread the most!
law & warehousing,
one in the morning, one in the afternoon.
so what do i do from 10am to 4plus pm? hmmm.
go home sleep?
stay in school?
dont go afternoon's paper? MAD!
hahahaha.

im just damn bored in class lah okay.
baby's having practical today and the dumb school asked them to wear formal wear,
so im gonna grab him to camwhore soon! :D

today's friday, tomorrow's saturday, then it's sunday,
& we have a monday! :D

byebyebyebyebye :D
dont miss us for now, i know u guys are sick of the hello kitty in my previous blog entry,
so here u go, something colorful :D :

2009-07-29T22:05:00.001+08:00

fuck luh whats wrong with blogger,
cant upload images.

i miss my baby.
he's sick now and sleeping at home.
:(

get well soon babyboy, i love you plenty(:

2009-07-24T15:39:00.002+08:00

omg i fuckin need a lot of hello kittys now.
they make me so smiley so happy just by looking at their photos :D
so childhood-ish.

more hello kitty to come! :D
i want to play the new hello kitty online game MMORPG! ROAR!

where's my boyfriend? :(

2009-07-23T10:58:00.011+08:00

we had this major big argument after the clock struck 12 for our 4th month.
gave fyp a miss.
then i woke up. Went to queenstown for a job.
wooot. instant cash.

then i met up superman at his house after he ended school.
far east was our first stop.
i brought him for a shoulder & back massage.
the people there screwed up my appointment (plus we were late),
so we had to do the massage separately :(
i was in pain all over luh.. the female who helped me to massage was damn powerful,
i wonder where she got all her strength from. even after helping my boy to massage.

she literally climb up onto my back and tried to crack every single bone of mine.
pain, bodoh.
but shiok luh. my right shoulder confirm got problem. damn looooose luh the bone.
after the massage i felt like sleeping :x

then we went to upp thomson.
initially i was planning Aston's @ The Cathay.
but the manager was SIBEH HAO LIAN when i called to book.
just jolly well tell me you dont accept reservations then kthxbye luh,
what for tell me 'oh we are always fully booked everyday bla bla bla bla bla'.
then i had back-up plans, thanks to TWIN! (:
upper thomson's Hooked! or Miss Clarity Cafe,
but Hooked! closes at 10pm while MCC closes at 11pm. so we settled down in this pink restaurant :D

babyboy had the premium dinner set while i had the classic dinner set.
his is inclusive of a main course, he chose australian sirloin steak, a dessert (Mud Ooz), a soup (Lobster Bisque) and a drink.
mine was Oven-Roasted Chicken Leg, a scoop of ice cream (strawberry), a garden salad, and a drink.
we ordered a Jumbo Mumbo (sausages, bacon and fries in nacho cheese), which, we couldnt finish in the end bcos it got really sick.

photos!

they had this wonderful appetizer, which was quite good.

the lobster bisque came with the garlic bread, damn awesome (the bread i mean).

my garden salad, babyboy loves this!

& the Jumbo Mumbo =/

main courses:
australian sirloin steak,

this is good, for someone like me who doesnt like beef at all.

mine, oven-roasted chicken leg,

damn hard, i strongly wont recommend this =/

after our main course we were quite full already.
then came the dessert, the most pleasing food of the night in my opinion :D

my strawberry ice cream,

the Mud Ooz!
damn awesome chocolate with vanilla ice cream but it got DAMN sick after awhile.
too sweet.
i drank so much water that i felt like puking.

then off to baby's house.
before the clock struck 12,
he gave me my present, my long-awaited present :D

didnt expect this really.
so i was pretty happy. i forgot about my daughter, threw her aside and started camwhoring :X

for the past 4 months, i am still the same old me, the same old bad-tempered & petty me, the green-eye monster,
the same girl who loves you the same, too (:
you never once left me alone to die,
let me feel alone,
thank you my superman, my pillar,
i love you.
next up, 5th (:

22 july 2009, 4th,
more to come <3

2009-07-23T01:29:00.001+08:00

4th month, it started bad, ended very awesome-ly.
shall blog about it tmr.
im damn excited to talk about it! (:

i love you, superman.
thanks for everything <333

2009-07-21T01:06:00.006+08:00

the other day boyf and i went to the new outlet at yishun gv for dinner,

EighteenChefs

ask him order food he looking at girl :x

food!
you can choose from baked rice, baked pasta or pasta there.
then choose your own ingredient (e.g sausages, chicken slices, mushrooms), and sauce(:

next up was buffet at The Line (Shangri La Hotel), farewell dinner for ivan.
thanks for the treat buddy! (:

the food ;

boyf <333

me (:

boyf's brother, john

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last sat we went down to boat quay to celebrate alfred alex tay sc's 22nd bday @ Bardot (:
can see he was VERY VERY VERY happy :DDD

boyf's handphone has this series shot function which takes 18 shots at one go, me like. save time.
& it's a good way to capture ppl who always siam when i take their photo. lol!
mingwei was like an idiot siam here siam there,
shengyong was hiding behind his wife throughout, damn lol :x

siam luh, siam somemore. heh.

a series of, US. :D

hahaha, so the night ended with abit of drama and i went back to baby's house to ton.
shall continue blogging soon.

wednesday is our 4th month, damn fast right?
im damn excited! i planned something for him (:

would update real soon when im not lazy with the photos :D
nights!

2009-07-20T15:52:00.000+08:00

i think my rj damn sweet :x

What do you think you will be 15 years later? Do you think that you have learnt in DSCM will help you? Discuss.

Response:
I think I will be working with my
now-boyfriend-then-husband 15 years later in a
restaurant or just a small eatery we both open together
as he is currently taking a diploma in culinary skills
and aspiring to be a chef, a great one i believe(:
And as for me, my interest is doing management, hoping
to have my own shop, so we already planned what we want
to do 10 to 20 years down the road, leading a simple yet
fulfilling life together, it do not have to be a
luxurious one, but if we can achieve this goal of ours,
it would be more than awesome.

2009-07-20T14:34:00.001+08:00

seriously, shut the fuck up.

you just appear to be a loser.

oh my god. im very sorry people.

i havent smoked for the whole day.

haywire.

i dont know who im referring to.

anybody there?!

:D

back to facebook!

2009-07-16T09:55:00.003+08:00

omfg omfg omfg. early in the morning.
damn irritated.
okay, i woke up way before my alarm rang, which is, gootz.

but i stepped into class and i now feel like im trapped.
im stucked in this class, which is ok,
but fuck, im stucked in this seat,
im FORCED to sit at the same table with someone i totally detest.

im not gonna comment anything else but this totally sucks.
i wish i could just go home now. argh.
i have law test today. which is.. -.-

something to look forward to.
buffet dinner at grand hyatt tonight :D

since i have nothing to do now,
shall blog about some interesting stuff i came across.
:D

introducing this pillow...

u know how we always wake up to our alarm clock in the morning? the feeling sucks right, like the sudden loud ringing.
now this is the one.
this PILLOW..
produces a cloud of illumination right in front of your eyes.
the brightness increases over a period of 40 minutes that would.. make ur eyes open and wake up?
damn gentle method. i think i would wake up peacefully every morning:D

next next next. for people who are constantly on diet but wants to have a fastfood meal?

this one!
smallest fast food set EVER.
with a burger, small fries, and small soda!
it's alll FUCKIN REAL and i think it's damn cute. stuff everything into my mouth including the cup n the tray :X

OMG, this!
first EYE TATTOO!
this fella got himself an eye tattoo, with blue ink!
the ink's like injected to the layer underneath the eyeball or whatever luh i forgot,
like, EWWWW.
he said there's no problem with it just that it feels like something's in his eyes.
OF COURSE LUH, blue ink! =/

okay, just read this & u'll know what i wanna say.
lol.

im still very irritated.

bye!

2009-07-16T00:42:00.003+08:00

this is fuckin awesome.
not nice?

do u think i care whether it's nice or not?!

it's omgwtfbbq...

chocolate heels!
made from Venezuelan chocolate (with a cocoa solid percentage of 70%) stuffed with treats such as strawberry or Champagne ganache and gilded with edible 22 carat gold highlights.

Each gift is beautifully presented in a brown and silver gift box and the chocolates are wrapped in lilac Christian Dior silk.
wooooooot!

source: FYSF.

2009-07-12T04:00:00.005+08:00

SAKAE-SUSHI on fri,
sudden craving after two days of quarantine :D

the chawanmushi damn nice.
but i still love the sushi and varieties from my fav @ The Cathay (:

oh yah, i mentioned about the third month belated present for boyf?
i cooked for him(:

woke up early for groceries shopping :D

it was chocolate mousse.
but i think damn yucks :(

look at the mess :x

then!
minestrone soup!
i think he still loves MOS burger's more :(

i realised the cards are getting smaller as months go by :x

i love girl girl :D
& boy boy :DD

just had this 2 hrs talk with boyf under my block.
damn nice.
and it's always damn sweet to think about how we got together.
& think about the past, and how glad i am to be with him now(:

but the future's always scary.
sad to say.

okay, i shall turn in.
goodnight,
eh, good morning world (:

!!

2009-07-11T03:09:00.002+08:00

itchy backside luh.
tot recovered already, i went out after i quarantined myself for two days.
then now, besides cough,
flu came to visit! :(

hate it hate it.
on a better note, my LOA was approved (:
and tomorrow's saturday! yay.

i failed to give baby a surprise today.
because i went to his hse to get my helmet,
then aunty baotoh to him that i was going over to find him!
hmph!

think i so nice meh, my motive was to go and spot check him lo! but i failed failed failed! ROAR!

i have many photos to upload.
the third month presents.
and some random photos.
shall do it when i wake up tmr!

(:

goodnight world.

2009-07-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

People that possess, don't love. They just want to own. Like some antique art - something to admire. Something only they have... and no one else shall have it.

The possessive person has an illness also. It is the lack of their own beauty - their own perfection, thus they must own someone else. They must own someone else so they can reflect their own emptiness in them. Possessiveness is emptiness.

time to regain my confidence,
fuck,
where is the old JASMINE! :(

2009-07-08T01:16:00.001+08:00

boyfriend just left for home.
he bought me subway dinner, fed me medicine, accompanied me till 5 minutes ago,
even though he's tired.

i have a superb boyfriend.
(:

2009-07-06T14:49:00.003+08:00

went to Adam's two nights in a row!

one of the nights we went to Island Creamery with Ivan after Adam's.

lalala~
see my bruise! ):

i just upgraded my laptop to vista,
and the bloody up&down button on my touchpad doesnt work anymore!
fuck man, this is damn sickening.
and my power button will shut my com down right away.
roar.
and i lost alot of data, like my bookmarks, my itunes, my mozilla,
roar x2.

i hate shatec, boyfriend snatcher.

2009-07-05T05:30:00.002+08:00

when a man tells you
'i love you forever'
and nothing else..

it's him.
the man you should put your whole life in the care of.

(:

2009-07-03T18:10:00.002+08:00

i was home by 12 today, i slept all the way till 4pm. woot.
class had some people who were still on Home Quarantine Order(HQO) or Leave of Absence(LOA) from school. they came back to sch cos it's too boring to stay at home, omg, its crazy right.

been feeling the chills & fatigue since last night, i thought it was because i dont have enough sleep, so i came back early to sleep, end up, when i woke up, my whole body was trembling luh, it wasnt even cold can.

then i had to wear a mask.
i had to come home.
people have to give me weird stares.
aunties on-board the bus cover their nose & mouth,
HELLO I WASNT EVEN COUGHING OR SNEEZING OKAY. if u're so scared stay at home luh! =/

i saw this irritating bastard who sneezed at least 8 times straight and wipe his whatever mucus on his shirt, touch the railings, followed by touching his own hair, face, and finally, digged his nose.
ISNT THAT WORSE.

and school made everything so bad.
u know we have ASSIGNED FOODCOURTS NOW?!
how ridiculous is it? we cant even choose where we want to eat.
if you people are so strict and determined not to let us catch the flu, then we shouldnt even be in school.
look at nyp, one case, and they closed.
you fuckers claimed that our students got hini from external sources,
OH U MEAN 95 PEOPLE GOT THEM OUTSIDE?
our school students have such poor immunity then, only we catch it, other polys dont.
wooot.

uhhhh i hate blogger luh, i cant blog images when im at home, wtf.

bye.
school, fyp,
school, fyp,
school, fyp,
h1n1, h1n1, h1n1,
prisoners, prisoners, prisoners.
how fucked up can this get?

ROAR

2009-07-02T10:17:00.009+08:00

removed.

im in school.
bad bad bad air. 86 hinis. booo.
im quite used to life back in schl actually. just the waking up part.
i woke up at 830 feeling quite fresh but i decided to just 'lie for a few more mins' and ended up waking at 905 :x

one week 'holidays' given by schl was well spent.
i have some overdue photos.

worked again. at some c*ld st*rage specialty for G*inness.
same old shit, different day.

i was so bored i resorted to this.

then we went to sing very cheap K (:

yeah, i went to donate blood.
forced josephyeo to go with me.
I MET ANOTHER INEXPERIENCED NURSE -.-
baby was there cos i wanted him to witness the needle poking shit :x
the person did everything wrong and my forearm swelled up almost immediately!
then she tried to adjust the needle by turning it, adjusting it, pointing to another direction or something, resulting in 4 freaking holes on my arm (there's supposed to be only 3, one for anesthetic, two for blood transfusion!), i had one extra because she adjusted the end of the needle and poked it in another direction luh ):

and then after pumping out half a pack of blood, she told me she have to pull out the needle, because my blood clots up (in the packet). -.-"
of course clot up luh! my whole forearm was swollen, she didnt even release the pressure thingy on my upper arm when the needle was inserted fully, my whole arm was numb how to pump blood?!
yeah so the story about why my blood would clot up goes on,
but luckily they were kind enough to ice that area for me.
but i guess my blood was thrown away. OMG, MY BLOOD.
now my arm has this big ugly patch of bruise and it feels damn jelly even as im typing now. the previous time wasnt like that even though i met a nurse who accidentally pulled out my needle, but my aftermath was very good, no bruise, two nice tiny needle holes, no aches, nothing.
roar.
im gonna try again 3 months later i dont care, HMPH!

see see see.
this was the initial stage of my poor arm ):

as of this morning:

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((s
sob.

toh sheng yong is jio-ing ppl on facebook to ponteng, just to sing k!
damn tempting can?!
and im having serious stomach cramps.
i dont know why really ):

BYE!

2009-07-02T03:27:00.002+08:00

fuck blogger lahhhhhh.
cannot upload photos,
what the hellllllll.

i fuckin hate schl.
i fuckin love boyf.
i still fuckin hate schl :(

2009-06-29T03:13:00.001+08:00

E26C 1
E35L 1
E37A 10
E54M 1
1-E54E & 8-E54G 1
1-E54Q & 8-E25A 1
3-E55J & 2-E55L 1
1-E56R, 2-E56B, 3-E26M 1
E54D, E54G, W54F 1
E46H, E46L, W55M 1
E55J & E54Q 1
W15B 2
W15D 1
W15E 1
W15L 7
W15Q 1
1-W24A & 2-W24A 1
W35A 2
W35F 1
W35L 4
W35Q 1
W36A 5
W36B 1
W36B-A (Recovered) 1
W46M 1
W54Q 1
W56R 1
Total 51

congrats to Rfuckingpoly..
you guys have successfully became popular, famous and whatever,
famous for being one of the hini cluster.
famous for having fifty-fucking-one hini cases.

fuck you school, fuck you understand.
ewwww! im sick and tired of this place.

2009-06-26T05:24:00.001+08:00

my school is so understanding.
year ones have e-learning, because they might get h1n1.
year twos and threes are superboys and supergirls.

wooot.
come fight me, h1n1.

2009-06-25T03:30:00.010+08:00

loads of backdated photos for events happened days/weeks ago.

open house @ Singapore Turf Club.

wanted to go see see the horses, but we went too late,
caught a bike performance though, so so only luh, :x

next up..
mingwei & baby went to help out at Jalan Besar Stadium..

as an..

it dragged for quite a while.
penalty.

i was quite well protected,
see, i was within this small area which has barriers and guards were all around me,
woohoo.

remember we were stranded at a place?
that very night/morning we saw a FLAT rat on the road,
so days later we decided to back and hunt for it because i wanted to take a photo,
ended up, my boyf found more FLAT unknown creatures..

yeah i know, ewww.

on the eve of our third monthsary,
we went for prawning, together with mw, kiat & sy.
my first prawnie!

us <3

rmb i bought baby our daughter, beancurd?
we have a new addition to our family!
introducing, togan yeo! :DDDDDDD

baby bought it for me as our third monthsary present,
now im preparing his, a belated one (:
thank you baby,
now i have togan with me every night i sleep.

togan is a nice name right? but it has something gotta do with my beancurd.
shall not explain here. lols.

anyway. we had a really simple dinner because chomp chomp was closed ):
we made a promise to eat at chomp chomp every monthsary :D
this was what we ate, not very nice, but it was with him so yeah :DDD

the pictures dont do the food justice, even though the food wasnt really fantastic but at least it did looked appealing (:

alright i think that's about all.
im officially serving my one week holiday now.
gotta work on fri, sat n sun,
rarrrrh.

off to facebook quizzes :D
bye!

p/s: grow hair grow. grow more grow more :D

joe's (:

2009-06-23T02:54:00.002+08:00

to winnana.

you needed a hug & an idiot to take your mind off things.
so being the one always kena sabo, i was very brave to give you the 'cry your hearts out hug'. lina luh! keep pushing me there! :x

anyway.
u know yourself best, like i said,
if it brings so much tears, why not stick together,
there'd definitely be tears too (well i always have for my case),
but it's definitely lesser than now, right?
you'd rather be sad because you love that person,
not sad because you regret making any decisions.

i just watched Ghosts of Girlfriends' Past today.
it really has something to put across, go watch it when u are free ok dear.
dont brood over it.
you guys are meant to be,
everyone around you can see it,
we feel sad when we knew the news,
we know you are too,
so dont let it slip,
who cares about the future, if you can overcome it now,
future is just right ahead no matter what right? (:

cheer up,
you are a very strong girl,

and you know you always have us to count on okay(:

third month

2009-06-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY THIRD MONTH SUGAR BABY <3

this serves as a reminder to those who betted on how long we could be together for,
sorry to make you lose the bet if u guessed lesser than 3 months,
for we have survived it (:

sugarbaby, u promised during our 2nd month, that the third would be a better one,
er, it got better in terms of the previous incident, which im quite glad,

for this month, more things were disclosed, we talked about more,
the heartbreak got even more at the very same time,
however,
i still love you all the same,

for throughout the tough times,
you never gave up on me no matter how much tantrums i threw,
how many times i cried and exploded on you,
how i always ignored you, say mean stuff to you, bullied you, pinch you,
do this and that to you,
you never once complained, never at all,
and i thank you for the patience, the love,
how much you gave in to me,
how much you love me and gave up everything else in your past for me,
always being here, no matter what time, where and when,

they said honeymoon period ends right after 3 months,
we shall see,

i love you very much,
and now am looking forward to the fourth (:

p/s your present might come a little late, gimme some time to prepare alright :D

2009-06-21T16:26:00.002+08:00

i have decided to stop blogging for a while.
reason being:
-7-days suspension pending
-i might have to retake module (CCB)
-150 dollars fine waiting to be cleared
-letter to parents shouldnt reach my parents
-i hate school
-no money, no mood, everything dont have,

FUCKING NO LUCK.
i hope the person who curse me would fall down a flight of stairs flat on the face.

i need everything to be back to normal.

2009-06-19T12:12:00.004+08:00

you guys know how irritating it gets when u are doing/typing something on your laptop (e.g blogging) and all the kpo people starts peeping or shamelessly looking at your laptop?

a smart invention which'd probably suffocate some of us.

reminds you of Kenny from Southpark? LOL.

i think these are damn extremes -.-

credits to UnderTheStilettos (:

fry-day always past the slowest.
chou chou is sleeping. im rotting in class. very anti social.
i dont like my year two class, probably only jecinda & houwen's nice to me.
rarrh.

breakfasts evolved into lunches.
dont really appreciate it =/

2009-06-17T17:57:00.003+08:00

have you ever been stranded in a place for 3 hours,
without water, without food, without cigs?

i was in this middle of nowhere..
i turned left and i saw:

i proceeded to turn behind while facing this route..
and i saw:

another never-ending route.

well done, we were far from the main traffic, we got bitten by mosquitoes,
we sat in the middle of the road, escaped spider webs, almost dehydrated,
oh and i ran to the end of the road u saw on picture one, ran back, ran to the other end of the road u saw on picture two, and back,
i was panting like a dog luh. lol.

after 3 hours plus of torture, fun, quietness, bla bla bla,
we were 'rescued'.
and i reached home near 6 in the morning.

hope it gets well soon.
hope the pain stops biting deep into my skin too.

2009-06-17T05:52:00.002+08:00

i met sugarboy last night (since its wed morning now),
i could take it very well,
the fact is i missed him after a whole day of school,
i didnt wanna hold his hand nor hug him, nor peck him on the cheeks,
until the voice inside me told me..
'forgive him.. treasure what both of you have now, the most important thing'
i realised i cant do without him, i dont wanna live with regrets if one day he were to disappear in my life.
so i gave him a big fat hug.

i would keep thinking about it yes,
i could link almost anything to it,
i find it disgusting still,
but the fact is i love this boy.
i have to overcome it.
and i need his help.
ever heard of the chinese saying,
'whoever ties the bell, is the only one who could undo it'?

i guess only time and sugarboy could help me.
nothing else.

that aside. what an adventurous night, i just got home, u wouldnt believe what happened to us, shall blog about it when i wake up.
for now, goodnight world.

2009-06-16T19:00:00.001+08:00

tell me to stop crying every single moment im not doing anything can?
this sucks.

i should really..
go cambodia right?

2009-06-16T15:53:00.002+08:00

i have a test in 7 mins time.

i feel damn moody, appetite-less, whatever.

they say i shouldnt hate those.. b*tches.
because it takes two hands to clap.

so true.

2009-06-16T11:36:00.002+08:00

i just realised my grades & attendance for all my modules are not bad cept for my elective, which is what i chose myself.

oh my god, if only its the same timing for the rest, its way too early luh, and i cant click with year twos for nuts, though they are surprisingly more friendly than some of my year 3 classmates.

eh oh ya, by saying my grades & attendance are not bad it's because i was expecting worse luh, it seems like i've missed A LOT of lessons, but it's actually just for my warehousing & business law.
my grades are generally Bs, some Cs, one D.
well done. no As just yet.
but i dont really care as long as i get an average of B for the modules(:

can anyone tell me..
trust & honesty, dont link right?

can anyone teach me how to forget unhappy things?
like, exactly how to NOT think?
dont tell me stuff like 'engage in more activities to keep yourself busy',
i think its bullshit.
im already busy enough as it is, school sucks luh. but then i cant help it, i will think, the sentence will keep ringing in my head, the images that would appear, i could sleep last night because i cried my tears dry, till there was no more, and i became tired, then i fell asleep with a headache, a heavy heart.
im in school now because i have test and i dont want to skip anymore lessons, because i want to graduate, because i want a nice piece of A4 size paper, because i dont want to end up being nothing, end up being equivalent or incomparable to chickens (okay, if u dont catch the ball it's okay =])
because my dad dont approve of me going to Uni, he thinks it's a waste of money,
because now my mum thinks i should get a very nice set of results in poly so that i could come out and work after i graduate, great, none of my parents want me to get a degree.

and i have to change my supposed 5 yr plan now. because i cant further my studies. because i have stop at diploma.
yes i know i hate studying, but i hate working even more.

so now i should just re-consider my future, after i graduate i should just get back to work,
maybe i'd continue the brand ambassador job,
maybe i'd take part in New Face, GND, all sorts of competitions be it i'd win or not, just for fun,
maybe i can take up a full time job and work my life away, with measly pay of 1.5-1.8k because im only a diploma holder,
maybe..

sigh.
bye. my class have gossip mongers trying to see what im blogging, so bye!

2009-06-15T12:43:00.000+08:00

i think my dad is going into menofuckingpause.
i hate communicating with them luh very seriously.
next time should just shut up.
i think my dad must be hating me so much also.
just because i was damn angry & upset he ate my bread and i told mum, then mum also ke yi man, go and say him, oh, jee-ba-bomb, explode.
i dont know.
i want to move to the hostel in school.
or rather, boyf's house.

i just dont wanna stay at home.
i hate that place.

2009-06-15T02:36:00.003+08:00

everything is so wrong.

why cant things be like first month.

it never will be.

i only have to face these.

i hate stress,
i hate being unhappy,
i hate guessing,
one day the depressed one might just be me.

2009-06-13T03:39:00.002+08:00

i have around 48 hours to go before sch comes back to haunt me.
i have a report on hand waiting to be compiled.
i have yet to do the appropriate changes to the proj manager.
i have not studied for my ut which falls on second day of sch.
why is everything about school school & school?!

i have 26 more weeks to go.
which is about 6 months.
(yeaps, i excluded vacations already -_-)

i cant wait for life after graduation.
i want to celebrate 20th bday.
celebrate valentine's with sugarboy.
celebrate our 1st anni.
so much things to look forward to.

okay, back to reality, i have to get that god damn piece of A4 size paper (read: diploma) first.
if not im nothing.

ya, talking abt it, i havent completed my CE.
so back to work,

ARGH!

2009-06-12T04:02:00.003+08:00

more photos from the wedding(:

couple's table.

the groom rehearsing with the hotel management.

a clearer pic of the photo taken <33

while waiting for them to finish rehearsing, we camwhored :D

just came back from golden mile & dam.
i want to spend my remaining holidays fruitfully man.
its like. 2 plus more days. and im back to that torturous place.
by sunday i have to compile the darn proj and email my fyp faci.
fuckschoooool.

bye humans.

baby, i love you,
see u tmr :D

2009-06-09T04:20:00.003+08:00

went to dino's (im back to calling him this bcos he doesnt like baby due to some reasons and this is how we started what! :D) crib to wake him up. poor thing. he only slept like 2 hours. he just went to sleep, i think he has been awake for more than 30 hrs :(

random: i think my left view looks really weird. every photog says that. :(

the wedding was quite a blast. we went to Orchard Parade Hotel to meet up with some of the brothers first. u know they have to help the newly weds with this n that.
guess who i saw. adrian & kelly &&&&& vivienne. small world. -.-

helped at his reception, which.. requires me to do nth!
hahaha, cos the tables were quite messed up.

and they have this photographer stationed there for ppl to take photos, print it out on the spot. the ppl there were so little we took quite a number of photos :D

this was one of it :D

then the dinner commenced :D
quite fun luh. whole bunch of yishun people. when u walk to the smoking point u can see at least 20 people polluting the whole place together. LOL.

i was asking dino whether he rmbs where our first date was.
hahaha. think i should make this one of the 'tekan' session when we get married next time. cannot answer cannot marry me :X

the people there all drinkers. omg, i particularly cant stand this girl call 'meee' (ok her name is something related to noodles, go figure) throughout the night. she dress like shes a.. er, a nicer word would be escort, she damn kp. aiya i just dun like how she dress n behave luh.
then after the wedding we went to the hotel room to disturb the couple. end up all drinking like free. i thought we were supposed to make them carry out 'project baby'?

came back to yishun at around 1.
slacked under kiat's block.

sigh. sometimes, we cannot control how the other party thinks/feels/behaves in a relationship.
do u think u can be beside your boyf/girlf 24/7? impossible unless u get married right. so everything is based on trust. and its a big word. too much trust might end up being abused by the person whom you place it on.
its hard to build trust, sometimes, not even married couples are capable of doing it.
like dino, i mentioned right, i dont dare to trust, yah, but im learning, it has to be an 'over the years' thingy, which i hope we could achieve.
cambodia trip for example, now im having second thoughts, i dont wanna risk.

i can only tell this friend of mine..
its not worth it. you deserve better.

both are my friends, i cant take sides, but its pretty obvious who i am supporting because i cant stand such actions by the other. i hope it wouldnt happen to us dino. never.

after things happen, they always serve as a reminder to us,
so this,
is a reminder to us b,
that we should never take the other party for granted, and love them, be honest to them, and not let anyone into the picture.

i rmb a saying by you
'let us love like the whole world's only left with the two of us'
(:

so dino,
i love you. (:

2009-06-08T14:27:00.002+08:00

tonight's uncle cai's (well apparently he's baby's friend, 32 this yr, call uncle or korkor also wrong luh! :x) wedding,
damn exciting, cos can dress up! :D
aiya, not really gonna dress up also, im stll thinking about which dress to wear, dont wanna be overly formal or overly slack man.
ya, whatever luh, i know b must be tired, he havent been sleeping since he woke up at 12 noon yday, cos this morning he went out to help them with the wedding.
now he's on his way home to slp abit while i just woke up,

and guess what?

I WANT TO GO & SHIT :D

2009-06-07T05:06:00.003+08:00

ignore my previous post.
just one of those bad days and emo period.

he havent been appearing on my blog so here you go baby,

love you and everything about you(:

i just watched Drag Me to Hell with b & mingwei at downtown east a few hours ago,
all of you reading now, PLEASE GO N WATCH IT, it's 2 thumbs up! :D

okay. long day. my sleeping timing's screwed up again.
roaaaar.
i know you all miss seeing my face here, so there u go, heh.
GOODNIGHT/GOODMORNING world (:

2009-06-06T04:06:00.007+08:00

i dont know if im gonna publish this post.

i think im a very lousy girlf. sorry. scratch that, i AM indeed a very lousy girlf.

it all started, i guess, after the first month.
i became damn overpowering, damn unreasonable, possessive, bad tempered, & mean to my boyf.
blame it on that incident. blame it on myself.
maybe it was because i was the one who went after him,
now i expect him to be really nice n perfect to me bcos i have never felt the kind of 'i want you' from him before. which girl doesnt like a guy to be doing all the sweet things. which girl doesnt like to be chased after by a guy?
esp in this case, he's my boyf, i've never experienced the whole 'courtship' period.

never mind that.
everything aside. to be honest, i have very little, close to none, trust in my boyf. that explains me being possessive n petty nowadays.

i feel like crap because i myself know im not perfect, i always bully him, yet he's always giving in to me, bearing all the nasty things i say/do to him.
maybe that is why im afraid he'd be gone one fine day.

i always look at others and i ask myself
'why cant my boyf just assure me?'
usually when i get all insecured, all i got was 'i wont run away'.

i get these little 'no confidence' fits every now and then. sometimes i think im fat, but he never once told me 'no you're not'.
i say i am ugly, the reply wasnt 'you are beautiful in my eyes'.

have i thought of breaking up? yes, honestly, because i'd rather i walk away than having him leave me here like that. and because i think im not fit to be anyone's good girlf.
but no, we are building it up.. though i cant really see anything being done.
sometimes i wished my boyf is more sensitive, more attentive,
i rmbed the horoscope to aquarians wrote 'listen to her when she talks, if not she would leave'.
thats how i feel. sometimes when i talk, and all i get was silence, it felt like shit.
sometimes i wished we would just sit down and he'd tell me the past, like what i did.
heart to heart talks dont happen when i am the only one telling, isnt it?
ya, then u guys would tell me, "if he tell you then u'd think more"
ya true, but tell it in a way that i know u arent thinking abt the past anymore?
i need assurance. nt empty talks. i need to feel that you are paying attention to me, you are sensitive to my feelings.
argh.

no im not complaining about my boyf to the whole world, read on.
i just wished my boyf would be more expressive.
that he'd tell me more.
i'd know him better.
know what he's thinking.
i feel like a useless crap bcos i dont know my boyf at all.
i feel so insecure thinking about those things i read,
bcos he doesnt tell me, i have the tendency to let my thoughts wonder.
bcos he doesnt tell me, i think he doesnt want me to know him/his past.
am i expecting too much?
i think i should just look into the mirror.
im just trying to tell myself, im nowhere better, i should really start treating him better.
but i hate it when things are not the perfect picture.
whatever.

i guess its just me being angry n upset alone here.

self-reminder:
jasmine, just shut up, who do u think u are. u are damn damn damn ungrateful, please dont take your boyf for granted. you are so fucking mean to him.

2009-06-06T03:51:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue
I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know, I cant take it back.
I know how you kiss, I know all your sounds
And baby, the way you make my world go round
And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry

2009-06-05T16:26:00.003+08:00

honestly,
i think im managing my fyp team or rather my temper for the team, VERY well already.
some havent even been meeting up regularly.
okay, comparing my team to MOST of the other teams, i think we kinda suck.

no no, im not saying my teammates are not good, in fact, almost everyone is awesome, well, i mentioned almost.

it sucks to be sitting in a team, and not accomplishing anything AS A TEAM. i twittered yday,
"i rather YOU tell me what to do than ME telling YOU because it is like waiting for the sky to drop"

even A was pissed yday,
so am i supposed to continue being quiet and lenient about many things i see and you dont?
been complaining to boyf since day one of sch about this issue. he can witness how pissed off i get after every meetings.

imagine, just imagine,
here you are, trying to do up a good report so that the chances for rework is minimal, on the other hand,
someone rushes the team, repeating stuff like
'er what time can we go huh?'
'come leh we faster do can faster go' (to me this is not a motivation at all!)
and many more.

all because of?

"HAIS, IM ANGRY WITH MYSELF FOR NOT GETTING TO MEET MY GIRLF TODAY."

may i know, readers,
am i supposed to, as a leader,
take that into consideration and let him off right at that moment, 3pm?
please note that he didnt even do anything for the report, okay, maybe some?
i dont know what he was doing the whole time because 3/4 of the time he was SIGHING ABOUT HIS PRECIOUS GIRLF.

the debate goes on.
"why, your girlf angry uh? seriously, she should understand that you're year 3 and supposed to be VERY busy for fyp"

"no, she doesnt even care lor, now im angry with myself for not getting to meet her today, we wanted to go and watch night at the museum one"

"so now you're saying your girlf is more important than fyp? girlf & fyp which one u want? can compare one meh? *PISSED TO THE MAX* if because of girlf u want to rush us now, what for. we do something slipshot and then hand up, still have to come back and rework. u like to waste time doing double jobs meh?"

for your info guys, i have many reasons right here to support why i am so pissed.

last week, we had a meeting, 4 thirty in school (supposedly thurs but at 12 noon that day, our faci informed me that it's postponed to fri after lessons),
he has work at 6pm, so he called me up at 4,
"eh where u all uh. can come library now? i reach already"

"can let me eat first? meeting is 4 thirty."

"huh but i got work at 6pm leh"

-.-
so after that he came to the canteen.
"faci where got like that one, last minute then tell us change timing"
(ya ya, u are the only one affected)

"as soon as she told me i informed you guys already, i dont think it's very last minute, at least it was 24 hours notice"

u know what he said?!
"sorry, my work schedule doesnt work on 24 hours' basis"

FUCK U. BCOS THATS UR PROBLEM, NOT MINE.
dont make your problem my problem. ur work is ur work.
our fyp is our fyp.
u want to call me boss, u jolly well do a good job for me,
not give me all these useless problems and expect me, no, expect ALL OF US to accommodate your timing,
so now, should i be calling you boss instead?
anyway i knew the 'boss' was always a sarcasm. ive been giving you more than enough face. MORE THAN U SHOULD DESERVE.

im done, the rest is for you guys to judge.

end of the day:
now u guys know why im always dreading fyp?

2009-06-05T04:05:00.008+08:00

HELLO WORLD!
i guess i have putted (YA I KNOW NO SUCH WORD LUH!) on 2kg at least.
know why?
find out what ive been up to these days.....................

late night at Adam Road weeks ago~

this pattaya fried rice is damn shiok! :D

this is random, at OCC.
look at how much hotdog rolls. ew :x

not enough?
THESE?

another ew!

alright luh,
abit is okayyy..
like my KAYA PRATA! WOOOT ITS DAMN SHIOK I SWEAR!

SLICE with boyf on tues! :D

an hour ago, i was at geylang,
HAVING DIM SUM! :DDDDDD

LOML(:

pi dan zhou :D

woot this is damn shiok!

xiao long baooooooooooo~ :D

& A LOT MORE

WELL DONE.

shall come back & continue other entries tomorrow or something.
i need sleep BADLY!

goodnight world.
i love you boyf.

2009-06-03T03:04:00.003+08:00

to: boyf yeo.

thank you baby,
for all the love & care no one could give.
for all the times you were there and did not leave.
love you for every little thing,
want you to stay with me,

you dont understand how i feel,
but the strong urge to keep you here,
and disallow anyone to steal.

love you too much, you always say.
it's the same for me everyday.

IVE RECOVERED.
all thanks to boyf(:

goodnight love.
sorry, thank you, love you.

2009-06-01T14:52:00.001+08:00

it sucks to be sick at the start of the damn holidays.
and the time of the month made it worse.

all these make me feel like crap & i cant help thinking bout all the negative stuff. i hate her. i cannot forget that bloody name. disgusting.

home isnt the best place to stay when u are sick & all alone.
bahhhhhh.

2009-05-29T13:43:00.001+08:00

what do you think of this series?

i think it is bloody awesome.
credits to Sprintist.
UPZ.
i keep looking at these over n over again.
not everybody can do this. power.

ok. im damn bored n moody. so i keep posting.
keep RC-ing, FB-ing..
SIANNNNN.
but a consolation, its fri, and i have two weeks away from sch. weet.

henderson waves with LOML

2009-05-29T10:49:00.006+08:00

finally, secret place entry!

that night, i waited for boyf to come over & fetch me.
i packed something and lugged a big bag along with me. (okay luh, not really big)

it was kind of a long journey, we became milopeng (mi lu bing, we lost our way luh!) for a little while, walked a 1km plus, up the very steep slopes (and i really mean STEEP) and finally we reached the very wonderful place :D

let photos show you ok? ;)

my boyf very cute :D

i love this! <33

then i brought out this secret little thing..

DUMPLING!
boyf gave this to me like a few days back so i heated it up n brought it along for our small picnic :D

finished :D

hahaha, act blur!

dearest. my bestest (((:

baby. thanks for all the things you've done for me <333

goodbye henderson waves!

2009-05-29T10:20:00.001+08:00

WHAT
THE
HELL.

u know what. i was absent from school yday and i just realied my business law UT was goddamn yday.

BUT ITS NT MY FAULT COS IT DIDNT SHOW ON MY SCHEDULE -.-

whatever luh.
im so dead.

i hate him. sometimes.
after all the times i sided him & got scolded.
i hate him.
he's yet another man who makes me cry.

(p/s: not my boyf=])

im terribly not feeling well now.
like. damn hard to breathe and damn giddy.
plus sorethroat. blocked nose. slight fever.

booo.

2009-05-28T18:45:00.003+08:00

so yday we went down to cgh for fyp, yet again.
just nice there was a first case of H1N1 in singapre on tuesday -.-

im quite tired now.
last day of school tmr, im falling sick leh, die -.-
and i dreamt of FYP last night! this is damn crazy! :(

gotta go.
dont come near me ok, i might have swine :X

byebye!

2009-05-28T02:29:00.000+08:00

somewhere..

DIE LUH. now i have two posts waiting to be blogged.
shall do it tmr!
byebye! :D

2009-05-27T21:42:00.001+08:00

H1N1 hit singapore.
boo.
shall blog soon once i upload everything.

im waiting for boyf to finish work (YAY HE JUST SMSED! :D) and go gai gai (:
miss that stupid boy! :(

byebye!

2009-05-27T03:20:00.011+08:00

hello!
last sunday was boyf's granny's bday, his family invited me along(:
we went to Ah Yat Seafood near Jurong Bird Park, like, when was the last time i went there man :x

so instead of just getting two tables in the restaurant, they booked a room,
& it was named 'Shanghai' :D
with KTV system! wooooooot :DDD

photo credits to terry (boyf's cousin)

we were here(:

boyf's grandparents.
damn sweeeeeeeeet right? aww :')

his two very cute cousins who were eyeing me for very long during the dinner :X

he is jason, boyf's younger cousin whom i think looks older than him :x

this is terry, jason's younger brother, my age, dont look like. LOL.
and he step one singer, he wasnt singing man! :p

the one beside terry is boyf's sister, my sec sch senior. we get along pretty good, which is good? hoho:D

this is john! my boyf's poor brother who always kena bully by ushim.
i treat him like my own brother so sometimes boyf bully him i will say one ok! :x

me, singerboyf, boyf's mum, john, rebecca (:

US <333

it was a very nice dinner with alot of singing,
happy belated bday boyf's ah ma!
i know she wont see this,
but i hope she live to a ripe old age, be healthy & happy every single day! (:

& boyf, thank you & ur family for bringing me along,
it matters alot to me(:
love you!

-

next up. miss my daughter?
we gave her a name already!
she is beancurd yeo tou fu. yes yes. get to find out why later.

just now, went to catch ANGELS & DEMONS like finally!
it was damn good.
cant wait for night at the museum 2 with boyf! :D

after movie, boyf brought me to eat porridge at chinatown! finally!

raw fish! hmph!
u know boyf was telling me 'this' particular substance in his porridge doesnt attract him.
so i asked
'so what attracts you?'

you know what the TOOOOOOT he replied?!
'raw fish'

OMG LUH.
his girlf wasnt the first thing that came to his mind y'know?! :(
so i was damn angry and told him. im attracted to the tou fu (pic below), eh seriously its damn nice, and i said, i shall name my daughter tou fu, beancurd yeo!
HMPH!

(sidetrack abit: my boyf is crazy over facebook's dumb restaurant city, its so infuriating, he can talk to me about it as if it's a real shop with real people inside know! sigh, games..)

our porridge

gotta go luh. no mood already.
i hate facebook games like seriously, just play something like typing ghosts, it doesnt involve human beings like us.
byebye!

it's a heart shape formed by two 'J' biscuits if u cannot visualize.

2009-05-26T15:04:00.003+08:00

VERY CUTE RIGHT!
it makes me smile :D

photography.jasmine.:D.i want a DSLR.:(

that night i went over to Spencer's bday buffet at NSRCC with boyf and ivan.
after that i stayed at boyf's till morning.
he cooked supper for me :*)

the very nice maggi mee with super duper nice soup and my ai xin campbell soup.
thank you baby, i love you very very much.

lets get married tmr ok? :D

ok, i miss my boyf now ):

fyp fyp fyp.

i think S factor is damn interesting. to think i was supporting kayk*y!
now i admire sher*ne, if i were her i'd have done the same thing all over again.
and it happened that M is barty's friend. wah lao.
the 'then thats your problem' right into her face was damn power. sher*ne's sucha powerful woman.

OKOK. i know alot of you dont understand. heh.
i gotta go luh.
BYE! :D

2009-05-25T01:55:00.002+08:00

hello. part two of our 2nd month :D

which is.. the present baby gave me.

a very ordinary photoframe? yes? no?

eh?

EH?!?!

:DDD

it has four sides and baby took the time off to went shopping for it,
and he went to print out our photos! :D

thank u b, i love you millions much(:

2009-05-23T16:05:00.011+08:00

hello(:

we had a very simple yet heartwarming 2nd month yday:D
for me it was adventurous. lol.

before i begin. i want to congratulate my boyf for
successfully enrolling into shatec!

all thanks to his very *ahem* smart girlf :X

and i waived his 25 dollars fine ok!
ya luh ya luh, 25 dollars only what :(
LOL.

ok ok.
so i was very upset on thursday night. because i bought something for boyf and i realised the head was BROKEN!
then yday i went to cwp, trying to change the thing for a new one but the person told me
'sorry. you have to go back to where you bought it.'

OMG, guess where i bought it?!
TAMPINES 1 ):
i did manage to change the thing. rushed home. prepared and waited for boyf to come over n fetch me.

the very very very good boyf brought nyonya dumplings for my family, his relatives made them. thank you love! my parents love it! :D

then we set off to his pig sty to put the presents down.
and took photos!

my boyf & our very very adorable daughter :D

me & my precious (my boyf is precious x10 :x)

our family photos! hahaha!

((((((((:

her dad taught her how to smoke :(

goodnight dear:D
we left her at home and went out for our date.
sorry we havent name her yet, shall give her a name soon.

BUT DEFINITELY NOT SOMETHING LIKE 'CRAYON'
HAHAHA. sorry lina, u know im joking. heh :DD

so boyf brought me to.....

CHOMP CHOMP for dinner! :D
it was my first time there. yay.

check out the well known GIANT sugarcane drink.

the foooooood, nom nom nom, slurps*

very happy us :D

wah lao. im drooling now ):
goodbye chomp chomp.
till then.
we will be back! (:

our next stop.
boyf wanted to go to..
BOTTLE TREE PARK (:
so i brought him there (he was riding luh, not me :x)

haha. he knows my signature move already :p

i conclude we both have shaky hands :x

going out. will come back to edit this post.
byebye(:

2009-05-22T00:00:00.003+08:00

2nd month,
thank you baby,
for all the times you were there for me,
to cheer me up, to dry my tears,
tolerating my bad temper, my moodswings,

it wasnt a really good month considering something major made me upset,
but i still love you very very much,
and will continue to love you more than 'very very much'

(:
thanks for everything,
for being the bestest boyfriend(:

2009-05-21T14:29:00.007+08:00

lunch at HK cafe with linalina :D

FYP @ CGH.
so troublesome luh.
must wear mask (quite cool luh actually :x), must walk one big round.
& we spent 1/2 the time fooling around :D
we did stocklist check ok. it was tedious enough already. we could have spent 4 hours doing it if we did not call up faci. =/

HAHAHA.

desmond super funny. he kept repeating
'the mask got biscuit smell.

check out the room. all the files/books are what they look for when they need to search for things like supplier, info etc etc etc -.-
oh man.

and this is only one part of the room. lols.

step yi ge hardworking....... LOL.

at night. waited for boyf to come back. mingfa took the camera n started snapping randomly.

bingling.

mingwei.

mengkiat.

shengyong. father-to-be!

us (:

i am very tired. my eyes are closing. i still have fyp. tmd.

byebye!

2009-05-21T11:26:00.002+08:00

'you know.. my girlf is definitely more beautiful than you. because of her inner beauty.'

awwww. so sweeeet. you know how girls always wished they could find a guy who loves them for their inner beauty and look people in the eyes and proudly tell them 'she is my girlfriend and i love her for who she is'?

im an insecure bitch.
i have this very stubborn thinking.
after the first 3 months things will change.

i rmb how lina always tell me
'at the start he will chase after you if you run away..
as time goes by, do u think this guy will still bother?'

quite true?
thats how human beings behave anyway.
after some time, the love will become a habit. then things would be taken for granted. he/she will soon come to terms with the fact that you might get angry/upset every once in a while and everything is pretty normal, then he/she would stop bothering.
get me?

im an insecure bitch, still.
school still sucks anyway.

how long can we maintain the honeymoon.

2009-05-21T02:32:00.000+08:00

ME & the cute version of FROG.
definitely not what i always see. lols.

she say she will blog when shes not so tired..

2009-05-19T17:29:00.001+08:00

MY STOMACH IS GROWLING DAMN LOUDLY.
because my last meal was at 10 plus. and i drank oreo.
thats all.

arghhh.

im waiting for 9pm. because boyf cant text me when he works.
boo.
i shall catch some small slp soon.

OMG LUH IM HAVING PIMPLES.
-.-

2009-05-19T15:02:00.001+08:00

i wanna go seletar farmway to get a dog.

my toy poodle~~~
ive been nagging about it since eons ago.
booo.

i heard seletar farmway's quite rundown and ulu leh. somemore i think quite near punggol hor? yucks luh, i hate that place, whatever, im going there for dogs, DOGS :D

i cant wait for lesson to end, then go home n rest, be a good girl, wait for baby to finish work (:
i cant wait for friday, monthsary! :D

im yawning im yawning.
boo.
i have to go down to cgh with team tomorrow for phototaking, the database thing y'know y'know -.-

lol. i hope i have to reach cgh by TWO PM.
uhhhh. bored. fbook. forums. FOOOOOD.

bye.

i say my candid fucking ugly.
"DONT TAKE LUH~!" lol.
(in class)

2009-05-18T02:41:00.003+08:00

i have a declaration to make (note: if you cant take mushy stuff dont bother to read, its for my boyf anyway =))

i love you very very much boyf,
so much so that i feel like im falling in love with you all over again just like day one(:

2009-05-16T03:48:00.005+08:00

we had a good time perspiring.
bike-wash on thurs night(:

baby's

mingwei's little sheep

step one use many equips. lol.

hardwork hardwork hardwork :x

DIRTYYYYYYYY

disturb him, heh

EH i only took photos for 5 minutes okay,
i helped and perspired like mad, smell like turpentine also. LOL.

anyway, rmb i mentioned the drawing of wallpaper for our hp?
there you go!

CUTE RIGHT!
okay fine :x

shall blog about the rest tmr or something. it's 4:10am now.
gotta catch some sleep.

byebye :D

i love you kangaroo :D

2009-05-15T09:34:00.008+08:00

HAHAHAHA!

my dad drove me to school today right.
i just received..

ºќэѓνιй. says (9:32 AM):
*Your dad drive like takumi in initial d
*1234(plate number) right lol

HAHAHA! takumi. damn irritating can. early in the morning.

anw,
i had dinner at boyf's as usual(:

thank you boyf, and your ma ma, your pa pa,
& your gamer brother.
already like my second home (*:

i dont know how to tell you.
anyway.. one more week! yay yay yay(((((:

that night the group of us went to upper thomson for hk cafe.

mine. this damn 'korean noodles' is actually MAGGI MEE, and it cost 5 bucks+ ):

baby's. most worth it one. lol.

shengyong's.

botak's :X

botak's friend's :x
mingwei had the same thing (:

ah tay's

see what boyf did. hahaha. silly boy:D

the other day we spent one hour plus at his house doing up our hand-drawn phone wallpaper (i drew them, damn cute one :p) and i was pretty pissed. booo.

then boyf made me angry and decided to punish himself.. :D

sherie's bday at the very very nice condo.

happy bday girl, i hope u enjoyed your celebration with so much friends,
thanks for the invite,
cya girls soon! (:

okay, i have been random enough.
shall blog about what i did yday night in my next entry.
after i get the photos from boyf.

TGIF. but im super tired & groggy now :((((

bye!

2009-05-13T14:33:00.003+08:00

my new boyf.
no i havent dumped my joseph yeo.
i just have a part time one thats all :x

im in school doing fyp,
supposed to consolidate the stuff for literature review by tonight and all the ya da ya da stuff.

going over to shere's bday later on!

if you're seeing this dear,
A VERY HAPPY & SWEET 19TH TO YOU!
still same old stuff,
be beautiful,
be wiser,
be loved (:

see ya later man! :DD

waiting for boyf to come over and eat his 'breakfast'.
unhealthy boy. always sleep till 2pm.

my dark eye circles are getting more and more obvious.
sad ):

i miss my boyf.
)):

2009-05-12T14:08:00.003+08:00

why i so stupid. can sleep at home dont sleep at home.
come sch do what stupid fyp. i can just jolly well do at home then continue sleeping my day away.

why i so irritating go wake u up. force u go register.
why must i insist on going with you.

should've been clever and stay at home, not come to school & rot,
all for what?
because i want to wait for you.

i should've known better.

i could have woke up at 5pm today.

stupid girl. fuck spider.

edit: i can only apologise for being a timebomb. i predict it wouldnt end soon like how mas selemat was caught. not just yet. sighs.

2009-05-12T11:28:00.006+08:00

im slightly better? yeah, just slightly.
though i could still talk & laugh a little at random jokes and funny stuff last night with him & his friends,
deep inside i still felt like a loser.

im no longer disgusted by anyone, which isn't the case yday,
but now, im just disgusted & damn irked by the things done, and probably said,
like..

"chocolate this movie, nice lah... the girl's fighting skills really powderful. how good will it be if i got half of her fighting skills.... i wonder.... home after movie. tired lah. and i found a new position to put my hands already. so comfortable sai..."

PUT WHERE. fuck.
(BTW BOYF, it's 'something something SIA', not SAI. sai is shit. now i know where u picked that up from. -.-)

&

"under my block for that old man to rest a while before him and me go back home to sleep. another guy who know im scared of tickling."

well, i dont know and will never know right? disgusting.

since it's one year ago i shall take one year to try & forget luh ok?

so anyway.
i managed to convince myself that i aint perfect and i cant expect a boyf with a perfectly clean record either. i could only constantly remind myself not to remember, which is like duh?!

"jasmine, dont remember about the time so & so fell down and landed face first on a pile of shit."
yeah get my point? if i try to remind myself not to remember, im actually refreshing my memory,
however if i dont, it just kept appearing, all the things i read.. they form up images in my brain, very very tiny brain. whatever words that you say now, i would always link them up.. and back to square one, i STILL feel like a fucking loser at the end of the day.

my friends & even my mum said i should just let this time go.
"for it was all in the past & shouldnt be brought to the present."
true.
well. said n done anyway.
i could only pray that i dont bump into anyone or anything that would remind me of this incident.
and that i wont dig up more the next time round.

just want to forget forget forget.
but its damn hard for jasmine to forget something like that.
damn hard. i have superb memory & sometimes its not a good thing.

at the end of the day. you are still my boyf & i still love you.
just dont expect me to be in a happy mood from now on.

im not in class. i woke up late, expected.
probably just start doing up my report writing and wait for boyf to wake up then head down to shatec with him, thats if he wants anyway.

arghhhhhh.
fuck spider.

2009-05-11T19:38:00.003+08:00

off to somewhere i know no one could find me.
somewhere i can be myself.
away from school, from family, from you,
somewhere i dont have anything to worry about.
a place which only belongs to me, no memories of other bitches, other stuff that makes me unhappy

i dont feel like opening my mouth to talk.
you know like how some people get shocked or too hurt & ended up refusing to talk whole of their life?
i hope i dont end up like that.

bye. you cant find me. dont bother.

2009-05-11T16:05:00.003+08:00

post deleted

now i feel like a loner. there are so many places i dont feel like going because the words keep replaying in my mind, what happened last yr, yes it's past it's past, so what, it doesnt matter it happened yday or happen tmr, it's about what was done.

i still got the same question.
what difference are there when comparing her & me?
maybe im even worse off.
maybe i dont even get those treatments.
maybe.. im just any other girl.

i cannot stop crying because i hate to know the truth.
yes. i have such things before too.
but i dont allow them to send me home, when im cold i rather shiver,
yes, like what you shoot me earlier on, last time i even go out with them, but do i take their bike and sit so close to them? do i ask them to fetch me from sch? do we go out till late at night? alot more. you know it. the list will go on forever and i will just cry myself blind.

delete them (including her friends) before i say it for the third time.
i know im unreasonable. u can refuse to do it, because i dont wanna make it seem like im forcing you.

i havent been so angry for the longest time ever.

2009-05-11T14:16:00.002+08:00

hi wrorld.
im supposed to be at Ubi now, for a casting, for this magazine shoot.
but well, yes, u guessed it, i missed it.
just now larry msged me and told me i could be as late as 5 thirty, damn,
if i knew i would have brought my stuff to change. im like in shorts & slippers. lol.

it's alright, shall be a good girl & go for fyp,
snapped back into reality.
well, i was, long ago.

sorry luh, very emo,
i lost my confidence for quite awhile now, wont be able to find it back,
not yet, not in the near future.

i need to find some channels for me to achieve satisfaction & regain my confidence level man.
i shall turn up for the NAPFA this coming saturday.
yes did i mention, my name's in the list amongst those yr 3 pre-enlistees. damn.
ok luh, still got some other girls. so yeah, im not alone (:

oh ya i mentioned i was very heartbroken,
im quite fine already. quite luh. trying to be.

no worries, im still with the LOML, we had some conflicts thats all.
im in class and im damn damn damn tired.
i have fyp later on.
today's monday. four more days to go.
~~ccb~~.

2009-05-11T02:34:00.003+08:00

tonight i was heartbroken, very.

2009-05-09T02:43:00.004+08:00

boyf was clearing his army stuff that day..
& being me..

:D

anyway.
work was quite easy.
met nice people at shell,
mimi, ain, latha, zai (:

oh ya, its a kit kat roadshow btw, chocolates!

but who would buy chocolates when they go and pump petrol at shell,
somemore buy 2+1 big packets, and it cost 6.15bucks each pack?
some dont even wanna listen to me. and the bad thing is there's gonna be a mystery shopper.
booo. but my sales not bad today luh, all nice people (:

the in-charge cant take clear pictures man, lol.

thank you.

im super tired. gotta go.
byebye (:

2009-05-08T14:53:00.001+08:00

it's super accurate, for me.
check urs out here:
http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/90_accuracy_14045.html

AQUARIUS WOMAN

If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy
or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed.

Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such
person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader , a real confident type.

She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door
herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked.

She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a
chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction,
but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring
type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.

Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up
with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and
agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person
again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word
"Love".

She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She
loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.

She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you.

She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that.

You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.

She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a "Working Woman" then you will be OK.

If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of "pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.

2009-05-07T16:01:00.000+08:00

sigh.

2009-05-05T10:55:00.008+08:00

OMG.
im suuuuuuper excited.
not because im suspected with H1N1 (yes, my faci kept staring at me when i coughed, i almost got quarantined at W1 -.-),
but because im gonna have a mega collaboration with this photographer who emailed me (well, hope it actually works out & is not a scam etc) and im heading to bali for one of the shoots, not a very great place but at least..

it looks awesome here!(:

& im gonna bring boyf over!
and the plan works like that, if the collaboration doesnt work out,
we will save up & head to bintan together
right right right? :D

-

back to the dumb H1N1.
im so sick of hearing it, the moment i entered class, the faci NAGGED about H1N1H1N1H1N1 till the first meeting ended.
like.. 'pls declare ur temperature. no thermometer must say ok. go n declare. who havent declare. bla bla bla bla bla'
*rolls eyes*

oh ya. did i mention i skipped the grid girls audition two days ago?
couldnt wake up & couldnt be bothered because i know its a waste of time.
even if im lucky (note: i mentioned lucky, meaning BY LUCK) and got in, i wont have the time since fyp is already suffocating me now. so yeah.

ANYWAYYYYY!

I AM VERY HUNGRY.

im on a strict diet and i only either lunch or dinner, cannot both cannot both.
want to be xian1 already, if i continue eating i will be too fat & people will call me dinosaur & i cannot wear nice nice clothes & i will be an outcast :(

aiya, class damn boring luh, byebye!

2009-05-02T19:24:00.001+08:00

grouchy boy, please get well soon.
i dont want you to get swine flu or influenza A they call it, or what stupid pig flu luh,
drink more water, i'll be a good girl until you recover, heh heh.

i'll pray pray pray.
will bring you herbal tea + dinner + strepsils + tissue paper later on kay (:

2009-05-02T13:14:00.002+08:00

tagboard's up.
i know there'd be haters sooner or later anyway.

but yeaps.
so be it. it happened so many times already.

bye!

2009-05-02T02:38:00.005+08:00

back from mengkiat's cousin's bday bbq.
photos photos.

camwhore & caught:

dont mind the frames, all mingfa's doings. LOL.

okay, im very tired.
gotta go.
byebye!

daddy, mummy, i love you both very much.

baby boy, i love you as much(:

2009-04-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

I FUCKING HATE PMS.
it spoils my mood and i get pek cek VERY easily. like i would feel very irritated, weather abit hot i will dulan, abit too cold i will even more dulan,
a bit bit i will angry, wtf man, i hate this.

baby im super sorry if i keep showing you attitude but not i want one,
i fucking hate pads, fuck you pads, go away man, i dont want to lai ang, i hate losing blood, cb, my blood not free one leh! :(

wah lao. im seriously having PMS luh fuck fuck fuck.
i got the urge to scream out loud for nothing.
CBBBBBBBBBBB LUHHHHHHH.

ok. its still not enough. all these are virtual.
fuck.
bye!

2009-04-30T12:13:00.001+08:00

Yishun Town Secondary School to Become Autonomous School from 2010

CLICK HERE

-_- wow.
lol~

2009-04-30T11:10:00.005+08:00

fyp yday. booooo.

business law today.
i feel so old amongst all the 17s/18s ):

and omg, they are so hardworking can. one guy brought a book on Contracts Law, the girl beside me took down notes, and treated 'first study period' as STUDY period instead of 'first break'.
okay, this guy beside me playing Pets Society so at least theres someone who is uninterested also.
my faci is interesting though, at least she's all smiley and not some attitude idiot :D

im so bored. i literally dragged myself out of bed today, i was half asleep even after i washed up. zzz.
no motivation at all, though tmr's public holiday.

& my baby elmo's sleeeeeeeeping soundly at home.

BOOOO.

i begin to wonder am i really interested in laws -_-
i was still thinking of continuing studies, regarding laws. booo.
but then again, i think my gpa must go up up up first uh. heh.

the other day we bullied ah tay aka ALFRED tay after he k.o from the drinking session, while we had chongpang nasi :D

sibeh zek ark :x

actually im just finding a source of entertainment now because i have nothing to do, im in a half-stoning status, feels like shitting, but i have to stay in class,
so yeah, byebye.

dont miss me :D

p/s i have an adorable boyf who makes me angry but i still love him all the same(:

2009-04-29T20:00:00.002+08:00

hello world. havent been blogging.
because it's yet another new week.
i have some photos and a video to post up but im so super uber lazy, so u guys have to wait for awhile ya.

past two days were just lessons and visiting/helping b at the stall and slacking with him. finally he's off today but he woke up earlier than usual to meet me up for lunch & fetch me to school, for the stupid talk regarding fyp :D
then he came & fetch me back, acc-ed me for dinner & to buy a new mouse (the old one dieded, yes, i know, its DEAD, but i like dieded cos it sounds nice :D).
thank you b, i know how im always very petty & bad-tempered & ignoring you & saying wrong stuff, but u're always so tolerant, bagus, love you many many(:

so anyway, the atmosphere's getting more intense for fyp and we cannot afford to be slowed down by any teammates already, seriously, fuck, leader doesnt mean i do all the work ok, and its not as if u guys get B i would get A.
lina, u know im not talking about you, you are the best dont worry ;)

so now im home, i want to go and shig (shit + fag) already. :D

byebye!

2009-04-26T15:55:00.003+08:00

just finished my fyp weekly log, my process flow diagram, my reading up of resources,
now i feel slightly better.
at least i know im done for fyp, for this week (:

but the truth always hurts, ive ALOT of things undone, still.
i gotta go to mediacorp this coming sunday, in the early morning ):
i've got upcoming shoots un-confirmed with photographers because i've been lazy/busy all these while :/
my plan's stucked because i dont have the time to complete the rest of it, bad timing.
i need to start revising regularly after each week because i cannot afford to fail or let my gpa decline further.
i have to complete my CE points by this sem if not im dead.
i need to find another part-time job.
job job job ):

gotta go.

last but not least,
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA (:

2009-04-25T18:17:00.002+08:00

i have kpo relatives, cb.

anyway. to think you could shamelessly cry so much and INSIST you were right.
thinking back i still feel like im a clown leh, how? -.-

its a stupid saturday lah,
luckily my dad didnt say anything, and tmr's his bday i dont wanna fight with him.
ccb relatives, seriously, u just watch your own daughters luh, thanks for being kpo.

my wireless broadband's finally fixed yay.

gotta go.
bye!

2009-04-24T18:53:00.004+08:00

YAY i was on time for school today and i managed to stay throughout till 4:30 okay.
like finally.
baby came to pick me up, even though the weather was hot hot hot.
& yes, ORD LOOOOOOO :D

im so glad today's a friday but at the same time i dont like it, because
weekends = boyf working + lots of FYP stuff to complete :(

i feel like shitting as im blogging, okay random.

ANYWAY.
omg. dear you, i cant believe i just read those entries.
oh, so you finally admitted that you lied?
i mean, honestly, relent about what? because you cried?

i thought the previous time we quarreled during my belated bday dinner, we already made it very clear, no matter what you're still our friend.
(yes, come to think of it, u cried too and i gave in, omg)
"no matter how i cried" so you are telling me you were finding a good way to cry or something? i seriously dont understand.
yes, now i read that, i really did, i really read that you 'do not want friends like these' (:
like what? may i know?

will u please stand in OUR shoes then? i dont understand. we have family, you have too, we have school, you have too, the only difference i could think of is you feel left out cos we spend most of our time with boyfs.
can i please stress that, even though my boyf has just ord-ed, we dont have much time tgt anymore because he has to work and i have fyp to worry about, that was why my holidays were pretty reserved for him & only him.
is there anything wrong with that? i seriously dont think so.
unless u wanna tell me u dont understand such feelings.

why was my voice stern?
during the first 20 minutes of the conversation havent i been talking nicely to you asking you to stop crying and tell me whats up.
my voice was stern because when i ask you a proper question you couldnt even answer.
something like 'did sherie scold you or did she not', it's just a simple yes-no question yet you can go one big round like 'she said forget it means shes not happy',
sorry but crying doesnt always work, in this case, it does not. theres really nothing to cry over, i was so calm initially because i see it as a small issue, i mean, if u say u werent blogging about us then so be it. my 'forget it' works the same way as sherie's, 'forget it' truly means forget it.

now i know.
you can lie without blinking. thanks.
to think i was still saying maybe it was our fault for overreacting to your entry.
omg. what the hell was i thinking. i think im the clown. right?

think properly, not with your brain nvm, just use any part of you that can think,
did we NOT stand up for you when u were down or something?
first, gerald's case, did i NOT say i wanted to go and confront him?
you were the one who said 'it's okay already' you even said hi to him, then fine.

second, J's case, how many times have I put in good words for you? or you mean I didnt? how many times I told C to ask J out even though he just wanted me & him for a dinner? did I not tell you many times, it's okay.. it's alright. huh?
can you tell me why?

if being a friend (minus whatever best friend bullshit right now), you can write something like 'i did so much for them but they didnt do anything for me', something along this line, are you sure you are a friend? i thought friends shouldnt be calculative and list down what have i done, what have they not done for me etc etc?
yes, if thats what u would like, i just did the same already.
you know what, you are all about yourself.
in your head its all the 'me me me me me', its either you are obsessed with yourself or you simply do not realise it.
go and read back your entries.
correct me if im wrong.
yah, i think you would, cos everyone/everything is wrong but you & your so-called beliefs.

go ahead, go ahead and do what you believe in, i would be happy for you when you're finally back to yourself and not be pretentious. i would be glad you can look into the mirror, and see yourself, not your physical looks, but whatever you are.
are you really yiwen or not?
or are you trying so hard to be someone special?
we are not true friends, im sorry about it,
i hope you find your true friend(s) soon okay.

till then, a very very goodbye.

p/s: no im not asking for any replies/smses/calls/entries from you. all those questions are for you & yourself (yes, all about you) to ponder over. whether you get it or not, its all up to you.
you can continue to stick to your beliefs of course(:

HAPPY FIRST MONTH BABY

2009-04-23T14:33:00.006+08:00

woke up at 5 thirty in the morning on this day..
when i left home it was still:

and was pretty excited luh actually :D

went to buy breakfast for baby.
since he was nagging about wanting to eat CHUI KUEY a few days back(:
was damn worried i would forget to wake him up at 6 thirty and scared i couldnt make it in time to give him his breakfast.

(oh ya i made a card for him but i realised i forgot to take pictures of it :/)
so tadaaaaaah. mission accomplished. and we were ready to go.
(no, we were not going to the same place, unfortunately)
he went for camp & i had to drag myself down to simei for fyp ):

before that, met lina in yishun for breakfast.
ta-ma-de, the mac made me lao sai so many times can -.-
bus-ed to tampines, train-ed to simei, bus-ed to cgh.

we went there to?
SIT IN THE ROOM W/O INTERNET ACCESS
AND TRIED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE MYSQL & ACCESS FOR THAT 5 TO 6 HOURS.

u tell me, fucked up or not?
when all we could do was head to school, which is located at woodlands, to do and at least have internet as our researching tool.
why? cgh's meeting room nicer meh.
argh.
forget it.
what was adding on to my frustration was the damn weather.
i bet today is another repeat. im perspiring right now as im typing. what the hell.

so anyway.
met up with baby to receive my long awaited present ;)

let me introduce her to you.
girlgirl :D

& girlgirl meets boyboy :x

LOL.

nothing much.
basically we spent the rest of the day together.
i dont see any need for a really expensive or special celebration because every other days felt like our monthsary.
more to come though (:

last but not least,
thank you baby, for all the things you've done for me,
you've been awesome,
i love you many much & very alot :X

<33

2009-04-22T18:29:00.003+08:00

im very upset that 3/4 of the day's already gone.

nothing.
i just hate fyp, and the weather.

gonna go prepare.

happy first month baby.

2009-04-21T11:41:00.001+08:00

I
AM
FREAKIN
PISSED
WITH
MYSELF
FOR WAKING UP AT 1030
WHEN
MY
LESSON
STARTS AT 10.

i am damn sad damn angry.
fuck.

2009-04-21T00:34:00.009+08:00

my last few days of hols were exciting, happening, and eventful. LOL.
let me blog now :DD

went to town for some stuff then met up sherie, nic & yiwen to go to cuscaden. before that i brought yiwen to try SLICE n tianbula. hoohoo.
very nice catching up. nice seeing them before sch starts and everyone gets busy (:

sherie, get well soon okay.
yiwen, u take care also uh.

so...
it was a friday night.
dino & i wanted some alone time together so he brought me to somewhere awesome..

and it was..

MARINA BARRAGE.

(:

it's a wonderful place to go to if you're sick of going to movies, pool, shopping malls or any places that are crowded or require you to spend money.
beautiful, definitely.
then on the way home...

we passed by those street lamps..

nearing..

very near...

can you see it?

the flyer! (:
we shall go there soon okay, muahaha. although i seriously think cablecar is a much better choice.

so anyway. that was our friday.

on saturday.
ivan drove us out for supper. at
harbourfront.
and we had very nice....

BAK KUT TEH :D

service damn good. 8 person served us. wah piang. too much resources.
anyway. the food was good too, so yeah :D

wanted to go to keppel bay since we were near but it was closed, right at the point we reached there.
so we went to mount faber instead(:

came sunday.
ivan treated 11 of us to Shangri-La's dinner buffet @ The Line.

no photos of the food because i was busy indulging myself in all the goodies :D
but it was awesome really, the bill totaled up to $8xx, cos i sat beside him thats why i saw :X
out of 11, at least 5 were rich freaks, one of them have 7 cars at home, cars like GTR, evo9, mercedes bla bla bla. i dont like being around rich people, really, u could literally feel the weird aura they have, maybe minus one or two who are friendly and dont talk about money/cars/houses at all, people like ivan (:

NOW COMES THE HAPPENING PART.
after some of them left. 5 of us, me, dino, ivan, spencer and chris, decided to go rounding in ivan's car. and we ended up at Dempsey Hill's ben & jerry's.
happily ate. went outside to fag. saw crystal and chatted for awhile before heading back to ivan's crib to collect dino's bike.
when we reached yishun, i realised...

MY PHONE WAS NOT WITH ME LUH FUCK.
i was DAMN UPSET i swear. it was worse than..
not getting to sleep for 3 days. yes, imagine someone like me who loves and values sleep so much, and the fucked up feeling was almost equivalent to wasting time quarreling with someone unimportant.
so both of us went under my block. sat down. called ivan to check his car. and tried to recall where i left my babyHTC. he couldnt find it.

and know what.
dino decided to ride all the way down back to orchard where ivan's crib is, to help me search thoroughly.
omg, now u guys know why right(:
he's sucha..... ahhhhhh omg.
i felt damn bad i swear. because he was so tired after a long journey from orchard back to yishun then he had to go back there again because of me.
thank you dino(:
(look out for my 22nd april post if you're reading this okay:D)

anyway back to topic. he couldnt find it.

so today, first day of sch. i dragged myself to rp.
then i called B&J. they couldnt find it.
i decided to pon sch. and go back to yishun because i was terribly affected n certain that that's it, there goes my babyHTC. oh ya btw, it was still ringing when i tried to call, even up till this morning.
so bingl skipped class too, to meet mingw. LOL. then dino sent me down to dempsey hill to find my phone. yes. bingl and mingw came along cos we didnt know the way there.
inside b&j, dino tried to call my phone, it was ringing. b&j people were nice except the manager, his attitude was as if i lost his phone n he cant find it n trying to put the blame on me. wtf.
so he couldnt find after all the wayang-ing in front of us, trying to act like he's looking for it.

so i was TERRIBLY SAD n VERY CERTAIN that i'd never get it back.
i was already thinking of solution.. how to tell my mum.
then i decided to call my phone, it was so depressing, it was still ringing, it's like u lost ur son, u know he's still alive, but u have totally no idea where he is, like if he's kidnapped (in this case for my phone, picked up by someone) or lost.
no answer.

3 mins later, my phone ring (i was using mum's phone), this lady called and said she picked up the lost phone which i just called!
omg!
emerald hill, unit 122.

so we chionged alllll the way there.
her name's caroline.
she's very nice.
she told me.
this morning, before 6am, she was walking her employer's dog (she's a maid by the way) and the dog ran to my pouch sniffing and barking, OMG.
can you believe it?
omg, its damn rare to find honest n helpful people nowadays!
im gonna go back and find her when im not so broke then maybe buy her some nice food n give her an angbao.

CAN U IMAGINE HOW HAPPY I WAS?!
i screamed outside b&j after the phone call. :D

okay luh. im damn tired now. i think i blogged for one hr plus. i havent reply dino yet. ooops.
gotta go!
tomorrow(:

2009-04-20T20:33:00.003+08:00

first day of school started and ended drastically.
i didnt get the chance to upload the photos for saturday and sunday's happenings. will do it soon.
dino's sleeping soundly beside me while im typing away right now.
poor thing. his eyes super tired after a long 24 hrs.

i shall continue with my rj & stuff(:

2009-04-20T12:20:00.000+08:00

i want my phone back.

please?
:(

2009-04-19T04:27:00.002+08:00

hello. will be back to blog either later in the night or monday.
so damn tired.

im making full use of my remaining 30 hours or something before school starts, again.
3 months been very fulfilling.
so much happened. the good and the bad.
but im very glad this 3 months holidays are coming to a nice end, and also a nice start for school (:

shall blog soon. my mum nagging. -.-

good morning! (:

2009-04-16T03:33:00.010+08:00

so my previous post was an apology. let me begin with my day first (:

met up with dino and acc him to NSC for his appointment.
waited for like two hours.
so i started camwhoring, again :X

if u dont like my face, again, dont see.

edit: WAH LAO EH I REALISED I HAVE BECOME DAMN FAIR NOW AND ITS SHOWING IN PHOTOS -.-
random: oh ya, i dyed my hair a few days back though, great thanks to mummy :D

so there was this bitchy old lady quarreling with a male doctor in front of me while i was waiting for dino. free show. i pity that doctor. lol.
but i salute his attitude. power. if it were me i'd have told her off already, so overboard luh.

so after NSC. we were both SUPER HUNGRY already.
so dino rode down to orchard for dinner. i brought him to my favourite place which serves great wings & topshell.

WINGS! :DD

TOPSHELL! :DD

mine, fish burger sandwich set (:

dino's, fish & chips (:

we were very full at one point.
but we were left with.....

damn depressed face.
"wah lao still got so much"
lol :x

so we decided to TRYYYYY and finish up.
ended with..

after the wonderfulllllllll dinner.
we went to meet bday boy ivan and two others.

see. like very handsome hor?
the watch handsome only.
he bought it in las vegas.
it costs '160 only'
as quoted from him. lol.

so this is the very cute ivan trying to be a twit. lol.

there we go again :D

even though this is blur but i like cos i smile till very happy :X

chou ivan's hand.

hello.

i have shaky hands today. daaaaaang.

so i had this apology post dedicated to dino earlier on.
no we didnt quarrel. we didnt fight.
we didnt even argue.
it was because i cried over what the aunty told him.
and i made him sad because he saw me cry.
but all was fine. and i thought it was because i didnt get to eat my hot fudge sundae. stupid mac, 24 hrs still want to do washing up ):

so awhile ago.. dino wanted to come over and meet me, again.
he said wanted to fag.
but when i went down, i saw this...
...
...
..
..
.

he knows im in love with this lately and he went to search 3 places just to get it for me.
awwwwwww (':

thank you sweets.
u know i know(:

now we can both enter dreamland smiling.
shall crash now.
like, NOW.

hahaha, bye!

2009-04-16T02:05:00.001+08:00

im sorry dino.
booo. shall blog later when im feeling better.