I FUCKING HATE PMS.
it spoils my mood and i get pek cek VERY easily. like i would feel very irritated, weather abit hot i will dulan, abit too cold i will even more dulan,
a bit bit i will angry, wtf man, i hate this.

baby im super sorry if i keep showing you attitude but not i want one,
i fucking hate pads, fuck you pads, go away man, i dont want to lai ang, i hate losing blood, cb, my blood not free one leh! :(

wah lao. im seriously having PMS luh fuck fuck fuck.
i got the urge to scream out loud for nothing.
CBBBBBBBBBBB LUHHHHHHH.



ok. its still not enough. all these are virtual.
fuck.
bye!

Yishun Town Secondary School to Become Autonomous School from 2010

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-_- wow.
lol~

fyp yday. booooo.

business law today.
i feel so old amongst all the 17s/18s ):

and omg, they are so hardworking can. one guy brought a book on Contracts Law, the girl beside me took down notes, and treated 'first study period' as STUDY period instead of 'first break'.
okay, this guy beside me playing Pets Society so at least theres someone who is uninterested also.
my faci is interesting though, at least she's all smiley and not some attitude idiot :D

im so bored. i literally dragged myself out of bed today, i was half asleep even after i washed up. zzz.
no motivation at all, though tmr's public holiday.

& my baby elmo's sleeeeeeeeping soundly at home.


BOOOO.

i begin to wonder am i really interested in laws -_-
i was still thinking of continuing studies, regarding laws. booo.
but then again, i think my gpa must go up up up first uh. heh.

the other day we bullied ah tay aka ALFRED tay after he k.o from the drinking session, while we had chongpang nasi :D

sibeh zek ark :x

actually im just finding a source of entertainment now because i have nothing to do, im in a half-stoning status, feels like shitting, but i have to stay in class,
so yeah, byebye.

dont miss me :D


p/s i have an adorable boyf who makes me angry but i still love him all the same(:

hello world. havent been blogging.
because it's yet another new week.
i have some photos and a video to post up but im so super uber lazy, so u guys have to wait for awhile ya.

past two days were just lessons and visiting/helping b at the stall and slacking with him. finally he's off today but he woke up earlier than usual to meet me up for lunch & fetch me to school, for the stupid talk regarding fyp :D
then he came & fetch me back, acc-ed me for dinner & to buy a new mouse (the old one dieded, yes, i know, its DEAD, but i like dieded cos it sounds nice :D).
thank you b, i know how im always very petty & bad-tempered & ignoring you & saying wrong stuff, but u're always so tolerant, bagus, love you many many(:

so anyway, the atmosphere's getting more intense for fyp and we cannot afford to be slowed down by any teammates already, seriously, fuck, leader doesnt mean i do all the work ok, and its not as if u guys get B i would get A.
lina, u know im not talking about you, you are the best dont worry ;)

so now im home, i want to go and shig (shit + fag) already. :D

byebye!

just finished my fyp weekly log, my process flow diagram, my reading up of resources,
now i feel slightly better.
at least i know im done for fyp, for this week (:

but the truth always hurts, ive ALOT of things undone, still.
i gotta go to mediacorp this coming sunday, in the early morning ):
i've got upcoming shoots un-confirmed with photographers because i've been lazy/busy all these while :/
my plan's stucked because i dont have the time to complete the rest of it, bad timing.
i need to start revising regularly after each week because i cannot afford to fail or let my gpa decline further.
i have to complete my CE points by this sem if not im dead.
i need to find another part-time job.
job job job ):


gotta go.

last but not least,
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA (:

i have kpo relatives, cb.

anyway. to think you could shamelessly cry so much and INSIST you were right.
thinking back i still feel like im a clown leh, how? -.-


its a stupid saturday lah,
luckily my dad didnt say anything, and tmr's his bday i dont wanna fight with him.
ccb relatives, seriously, u just watch your own daughters luh, thanks for being kpo.

my wireless broadband's finally fixed yay.

gotta go.
bye!

YAY i was on time for school today and i managed to stay throughout till 4:30 okay.
like finally.
baby came to pick me up, even though the weather was hot hot hot.
& yes, ORD LOOOOOOO :D

im so glad today's a friday but at the same time i dont like it, because
weekends = boyf working + lots of FYP stuff to complete :(

i feel like shitting as im blogging, okay random.

ANYWAY.
omg. dear you, i cant believe i just read those entries.
oh, so you finally admitted that you lied?
i mean, honestly, relent about what? because you cried?

i thought the previous time we quarreled during my belated bday dinner, we already made it very clear, no matter what you're still our friend.
(yes, come to think of it, u cried too and i gave in, omg)
"no matter how i cried" so you are telling me you were finding a good way to cry or something? i seriously dont understand.
yes, now i read that, i really did, i really read that you 'do not want friends like these' (:
like what? may i know?

will u please stand in OUR shoes then? i dont understand. we have family, you have too, we have school, you have too, the only difference i could think of is you feel left out cos we spend most of our time with boyfs.
can i please stress that, even though my boyf has just ord-ed, we dont have much time tgt anymore because he has to work and i have fyp to worry about, that was why my holidays were pretty reserved for him & only him.
is there anything wrong with that? i seriously dont think so.
unless u wanna tell me u dont understand such feelings.

why was my voice stern?
during the first 20 minutes of the conversation havent i been talking nicely to you asking you to stop crying and tell me whats up.
my voice was stern because when i ask you a proper question you couldnt even answer.
something like 'did sherie scold you or did she not', it's just a simple yes-no question yet you can go one big round like 'she said forget it means shes not happy',
sorry but crying doesnt always work, in this case, it does not. theres really nothing to cry over, i was so calm initially because i see it as a small issue, i mean, if u say u werent blogging about us then so be it. my 'forget it' works the same way as sherie's, 'forget it' truly means forget it.

now i know.
you can lie without blinking. thanks.
to think i was still saying maybe it was our fault for overreacting to your entry.
omg. what the hell was i thinking. i think im the clown. right?

think properly, not with your brain nvm, just use any part of you that can think,
did we NOT stand up for you when u were down or something?
first, gerald's case, did i NOT say i wanted to go and confront him?
you were the one who said 'it's okay already' you even said hi to him, then fine.

second, J's case, how many times have I put in good words for you? or you mean I didnt? how many times I told C to ask J out even though he just wanted me & him for a dinner? did I not tell you many times, it's okay.. it's alright. huh?
can you tell me why?

if being a friend (minus whatever best friend bullshit right now), you can write something like 'i did so much for them but they didnt do anything for me', something along this line, are you sure you are a friend? i thought friends shouldnt be calculative and list down what have i done, what have they not done for me etc etc?
yes, if thats what u would like, i just did the same already.
you know what, you are all about yourself.
in your head its all the 'me me me me me', its either you are obsessed with yourself or you simply do not realise it.
go and read back your entries.
correct me if im wrong.
yah, i think you would, cos everyone/everything is wrong but you & your so-called beliefs.

go ahead, go ahead and do what you believe in, i would be happy for you when you're finally back to yourself and not be pretentious. i would be glad you can look into the mirror, and see yourself, not your physical looks, but whatever you are.
are you really yiwen or not?
or are you trying so hard to be someone special?
we are not true friends, im sorry about it,
i hope you find your true friend(s) soon okay.

till then, a very very goodbye.

p/s: no im not asking for any replies/smses/calls/entries from you. all those questions are for you & yourself (yes, all about you) to ponder over. whether you get it or not, its all up to you.
you can continue to stick to your beliefs of course(:

woke up at 5 thirty in the morning on this day..
when i left home it was still:


and was pretty excited luh actually :D



went to buy breakfast for baby.
since he was nagging about wanting to eat CHUI KUEY a few days back(:
was damn worried i would forget to wake him up at 6 thirty and scared i couldnt make it in time to give him his breakfast.

(oh ya i made a card for him but i realised i forgot to take pictures of it :/)
so tadaaaaaah. mission accomplished. and we were ready to go.
(no, we were not going to the same place, unfortunately)
he went for camp & i had to drag myself down to simei for fyp ):

before that, met lina in yishun for breakfast.
ta-ma-de, the mac made me lao sai so many times can -.-
bus-ed to tampines, train-ed to simei, bus-ed to cgh.

we went there to?
SIT IN THE ROOM W/O INTERNET ACCESS
AND TRIED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO USE MYSQL & ACCESS FOR THAT 5 TO 6 HOURS.

u tell me, fucked up or not?
when all we could do was head to school, which is located at woodlands, to do and at least have internet as our researching tool.
why? cgh's meeting room nicer meh.
argh.
forget it.
what was adding on to my frustration was the damn weather.
i bet today is another repeat. im perspiring right now as im typing. what the hell.

so anyway.
met up with baby to receive my long awaited present ;)

let me introduce her to you.
girlgirl :D



& girlgirl meets boyboy :x


LOL.

nothing much.
basically we spent the rest of the day together.
i dont see any need for a really expensive or special celebration because every other days felt like our monthsary.
more to come though (:


last but not least,
thank you baby, for all the things you've done for me,
you've been awesome,
i love you many much & very alot :X


<33

im very upset that 3/4 of the day's already gone.

nothing.
i just hate fyp, and the weather.

gonna go prepare.

happy first month baby.

I
AM
FREAKIN
PISSED
WITH
MYSELF
FOR WAKING UP AT 1030
WHEN
MY
LESSON
STARTS AT 10.

i am damn sad damn angry.
fuck.

my last few days of hols were exciting, happening, and eventful. LOL.
let me blog now :DD

went to town for some stuff then met up sherie, nic & yiwen to go to cuscaden. before that i brought yiwen to try SLICE n tianbula. hoohoo.
very nice catching up. nice seeing them before sch starts and everyone gets busy (:

sherie, get well soon okay.
yiwen, u take care also uh.

so...
it was a friday night.
dino & i wanted some alone time together so he brought me to somewhere awesome..




and it was..
























MARINA BARRAGE.





(:

it's a wonderful place to go to if you're sick of going to movies, pool, shopping malls or any places that are crowded or require you to spend money.
beautiful, definitely.
then on the way home...


we passed by those street lamps..



nearing..


very near...



can you see it?



the flyer! (:
we shall go there soon okay, muahaha. although i seriously think cablecar is a much better choice.

so anyway. that was our friday.

on saturday.
ivan drove us out for supper. at
harbourfront.
and we had very nice....


BAK KUT TEH :D









service damn good. 8 person served us. wah piang. too much resources.
anyway. the food was good too, so yeah :D

wanted to go to keppel bay since we were near but it was closed, right at the point we reached there.
so we went to mount faber instead(:






came sunday.
ivan treated 11 of us to Shangri-La's dinner buffet @ The Line.



no photos of the food because i was busy indulging myself in all the goodies :D
but it was awesome really, the bill totaled up to $8xx, cos i sat beside him thats why i saw :X
out of 11, at least 5 were rich freaks, one of them have 7 cars at home, cars like GTR, evo9, mercedes bla bla bla. i dont like being around rich people, really, u could literally feel the weird aura they have, maybe minus one or two who are friendly and dont talk about money/cars/houses at all, people like ivan (:

NOW COMES THE HAPPENING PART.
after some of them left. 5 of us, me, dino, ivan, spencer and chris, decided to go rounding in ivan's car. and we ended up at Dempsey Hill's ben & jerry's.
happily ate. went outside to fag. saw crystal and chatted for awhile before heading back to ivan's crib to collect dino's bike.
when we reached yishun, i realised...

















MY PHONE WAS NOT WITH ME LUH FUCK.
i was DAMN UPSET i swear. it was worse than..
not getting to sleep for 3 days. yes, imagine someone like me who loves and values sleep so much, and the fucked up feeling was almost equivalent to wasting time quarreling with someone unimportant.
so both of us went under my block. sat down. called ivan to check his car. and tried to recall where i left my babyHTC. he couldnt find it.

and know what.
dino decided to ride all the way down back to orchard where ivan's crib is, to help me search thoroughly.
omg, now u guys know why right(:
he's sucha..... ahhhhhh omg.
i felt damn bad i swear. because he was so tired after a long journey from orchard back to yishun then he had to go back there again because of me.
thank you dino(:
(look out for my 22nd april post if you're reading this okay:D)

anyway back to topic. he couldnt find it.

so today, first day of sch. i dragged myself to rp.
then i called B&J. they couldnt find it.
i decided to pon sch. and go back to yishun because i was terribly affected n certain that that's it, there goes my babyHTC. oh ya btw, it was still ringing when i tried to call, even up till this morning.
so bingl skipped class too, to meet mingw. LOL. then dino sent me down to dempsey hill to find my phone. yes. bingl and mingw came along cos we didnt know the way there.
inside b&j, dino tried to call my phone, it was ringing. b&j people were nice except the manager, his attitude was as if i lost his phone n he cant find it n trying to put the blame on me. wtf.
so he couldnt find after all the wayang-ing in front of us, trying to act like he's looking for it.

so i was TERRIBLY SAD n VERY CERTAIN that i'd never get it back.
i was already thinking of solution.. how to tell my mum.
then i decided to call my phone, it was so depressing, it was still ringing, it's like u lost ur son, u know he's still alive, but u have totally no idea where he is, like if he's kidnapped (in this case for my phone, picked up by someone) or lost.
no answer.

3 mins later, my phone ring (i was using mum's phone), this lady called and said she picked up the lost phone which i just called!
omg!
emerald hill, unit 122.

so we chionged alllll the way there.
her name's caroline.
she's very nice.
she told me.
this morning, before 6am, she was walking her employer's dog (she's a maid by the way) and the dog ran to my pouch sniffing and barking, OMG.
can you believe it?
omg, its damn rare to find honest n helpful people nowadays!
im gonna go back and find her when im not so broke then maybe buy her some nice food n give her an angbao.

CAN U IMAGINE HOW HAPPY I WAS?!
i screamed outside b&j after the phone call. :D

okay luh. im damn tired now. i think i blogged for one hr plus. i havent reply dino yet. ooops.
gotta go!
tomorrow(:

first day of school started and ended drastically.
i didnt get the chance to upload the photos for saturday and sunday's happenings. will do it soon.
dino's sleeping soundly beside me while im typing away right now.
poor thing. his eyes super tired after a long 24 hrs.

i shall continue with my rj & stuff(:

i want my phone back.


please?
:(

hello. will be back to blog either later in the night or monday.
so damn tired.

im making full use of my remaining 30 hours or something before school starts, again.
3 months been very fulfilling.
so much happened. the good and the bad.
but im very glad this 3 months holidays are coming to a nice end, and also a nice start for school (:

shall blog soon. my mum nagging. -.-

good morning! (:

so my previous post was an apology. let me begin with my day first (:

met up with dino and acc him to NSC for his appointment.
waited for like two hours.
so i started camwhoring, again :X

if u dont like my face, again, dont see.
















edit: WAH LAO EH I REALISED I HAVE BECOME DAMN FAIR NOW AND ITS SHOWING IN PHOTOS -.-
random: oh ya, i dyed my hair a few days back though, great thanks to mummy :D





so there was this bitchy old lady quarreling with a male doctor in front of me while i was waiting for dino. free show. i pity that doctor. lol.
but i salute his attitude. power. if it were me i'd have told her off already, so overboard luh.

so after NSC. we were both SUPER HUNGRY already.
so dino rode down to orchard for dinner. i brought him to my favourite place which serves great wings & topshell.



WINGS! :DD


TOPSHELL! :DD


mine, fish burger sandwich set (:


dino's, fish & chips (:


we were very full at one point.
but we were left with.....


damn depressed face.
"wah lao still got so much"
lol :x


so we decided to TRYYYYY and finish up.
ended with..


after the wonderfulllllllll dinner.
we went to meet bday boy ivan and two others.

see. like very handsome hor?
the watch handsome only.
he bought it in las vegas.
it costs '160 only'
as quoted from him. lol.


so this is the very cute ivan trying to be a twit. lol.


there we go again :D

even though this is blur but i like cos i smile till very happy :X


chou ivan's hand.


hello.


i have shaky hands today. daaaaaang.



so i had this apology post dedicated to dino earlier on.
no we didnt quarrel. we didnt fight.
we didnt even argue.
it was because i cried over what the aunty told him.
and i made him sad because he saw me cry.
but all was fine. and i thought it was because i didnt get to eat my hot fudge sundae. stupid mac, 24 hrs still want to do washing up ):

so awhile ago.. dino wanted to come over and meet me, again.
he said wanted to fag.
but when i went down, i saw this...
...
...
..
..
.


















he knows im in love with this lately and he went to search 3 places just to get it for me.
awwwwwww (':

thank you sweets.
u know i know(:

now we can both enter dreamland smiling.
shall crash now.
like, NOW.

hahaha, bye!

JASMINE♥

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